Some reflections from the first two weeks:
In many ways, my time in Korea so far has challenged me. Going into this summer, I was really excited to teach English to the kids at Jiguchon. I imagined the kids learning new vocab, having fun during our classes, and chatting with them during lunchtime. Yet, the first few days were incredibly frustrating. Because I’m not fluent in Korean, when Erin or Thomas would explain things to the kids in Korean, I felt like I had nothing I could add. During lunch, when Annie and Martha (two of our cutest 5th graders) and the other girls in our class would talk to each other in Korean, I felt unable to join their conversation. When I tried to talk to Nancy (one of our lovely 4th graders) in English and ask her what she was doing over the weekend, she just looked at me with a blank stare and a confused face. I felt isolated and useless, and worse of all, I felt like I had failed as their teacher.
But as time has passed, I’ve slowly began to realize that maybe these frustrations are what are allowing me to think about the kids and what some of them may be going through. Particularly in the middle school, there are so many kids who speak only Chinese. Their Korean isn’t advanced enough to understand what their homeroom teacher says when she gives instructions, and as a result, the kids who can speak both Chinese and Korean translate for them. The teacher says something, and there’s almost a ripple effect of whispers as the students translate to their Chinese friends what she’s saying. Seeing this during the first few days of middle school has really made me start to think about these kids beyond their education. How do these particular kids feel not being able to speak Korean? Not just restricted to during school, but in their day to day life. In some ways, feeling so isolated and confused all of the time helped me understand the kids. I know that for me, it’s been really hard to not be able to talk to people or understand people. This influx of feelings from these past few days really makes me wonder whether these kids who can only speak Chinese or Vietnamese or Russian feel the same frustration and isolation that I sometimes felt. And while I will only have to get through the next few months in a country where I don’t speak the language, some of these kids will live here the rest of their lives. Thinking about this has made me realize that this Duke Engage trip is more than just teaching English. It’s also about helping the kids adjust socially, and helping them feel more comfortable in the classroom. Talking to the homeroom teacher, we realized that that was exactly what she wanted us to do. Rather than focusing on teaching the middle schoolers English, she expressed the hope that we would be able to connect with the kids and act as role models. She wants us to inspire them and nurture their hopes and dreams.
With all of that background info, here’s how week three went.
In terms of elementary school, the classroom dynamic was so much different. Last week, I taught 5th grade with Thomas and Shey. 5th grade was a small class—the kids were energetic, but not too rowdy. This week, I taught 4th grade with Erin, Martin, Daniel, and Nikki, and it was a lot (to say the least). It was only eleven kids, but I felt like their energy bounced off each other and amplified when they were all together. They always want to play games, and they’re so competitive. We used that to our advantage though. The kids pick up vocab really fast, so we played lots of games like Pictionary and bingo and charades. I think one challenge has been the fact that the kids are at such different levels. They’re all in the same grade, but some kids have trouble reading, while other kids like Wendy and Calvin seem to already know what we’re teaching. Seeing how different their English (and Korean) abilities were really made me wish that there were some better way that we could cater to their individual needs. Each kid really learns in such a unique way that it’s hard to find activities that engage all of them. The boys (like Hanshin and Junhyun) only really love playing games. Otherwise, they’re not really interested in other things (like drawing, or writing). The girls (like Wendy and Lili) have the patience to do more challenging activities like one of the writing games that Daniel came up with. It really made me wish that there were more classrooms, or some other way to split up the class more effectively. What we ended up having to do was split up into small groups to do activities so that there were more one-on-one teacher and student interactions. It worked out fine, but sometimes I wish that there was more that we could do somehow.
In terms of the middle school, it’s been a little better. Nikki and I (being the only two Chinese speakers in the group) have been teaching all of the kids who only speak Chinese. Last week was pretty rough. The kids weren’t really interested in what we were teaching (or learning English), and it’s been hard to get them excited. We didn’t really know what their homeroom teacher wanted us to do either, so that was a big problem. But after talking to her and hearing what she had said, we’ve tried to adapt our curriculum to try to connect with the kids. Particularly with the class that Nikki and I teach, it’s been difficult. The homeroom teacher herself told us that the hardest children to work with were the ones who spoke almost no Korean and no English. Because they don’t really understand what the teacher is saying most of the time, I think she feels like they’ve gotten used to not participating in class since they can’t understand. Hearing this, it became Nikki’s and my goal to simply get the kids to participate. I started teaching and speaking to the kids in Chinese so that they would feel more comfortable. Slowly, I think it’s worked. Yahan and Boram definitely seemed more comfortable after they realized that we were explaining things in Chinese. They’ve gradually been participating more in Chinese, and as the days go by, they’ve been using more English. For last week’s class, we taught them how to play Go Fish. It was the first time that I saw them so excited for any of our activities, which made me so happy to see. They got to practice their numbers (Yahan struggled a little, but we wrote the numbers on the board), and they also got to practice their English (it was really funny when Boram asked Jooeun “Do you have a ___?” three different times and he had all of the cards she needed).
In terms of how I’ve been doing this week compared to the beginning, it’s been getting better. Not being able to speak Korean has challenged me to find other ways to communicate with the kids. I’ve been picking up a lot more Korean (I can kind of speak now? Maybe?) and I’ve learned to just gesture and find different ways to explain things. I’ve started to teach lessons (instead of just floating around the room and helping individuals) and it makes me hopeful and excited. Every day gets a little better than the day before. I’m doing my best as their teacher, and that’s all that I can ask for.
It’s definitely a learning process. Not just for them, but also for us.
-Emily